jai ho

i'm so excited for the slumdog dvd to come out next week! i promised to myself that i wouldn't watch it again until the dvd came out, & i don't feel like watching it in a movie theater again. if you haven't seen the film yet, there's a reason why it won best picture + all of the other awards it got!

drivers in pensacola suck, seriously. there's a reason why there's a turn signal! grr. i'm not scared of hitting someone, i'm more scared of getting rear-ended or someone hitting me! i still need to work on my parking, and when i'm alone, mama won't be there to tell me if i parked crooked!

i'm so overwhelmed by all the responsibilities i've had to take on during these past months. i can't believe i'm about to finally drive, (even though i should have started two years ago) & that i'm about to go away for college. i "officially" find out if i got my Nursing NROTC scholarship sometime this week, (hopefully). i heard that the board finally finished deliberating last saturday. i just want the website to say, "YES". i mean, that's how the military is about responses anyway...they're succinct and straight to the point! i'm still scared that i won't get it because there's still that possibility, but from what sources tell me, i'm safe! i won't be able to leave this town without this scholarship! i need that 180 grand! well, JU needs it ha.

i'm excited for spring break & latin state! i'll be out of town for two weeks in a row. i like getting that city rush! it's beach season, and i look fat in my bathing suit! i tried all of them on this weekend, and i was like, "ewwww, i'm fat!" i refuse to put a bathing suit on until i get my body back in shape like how it was during the summer. bye hibernation!

basically i'm excited for slumdog, spring break, & latin state. i have plenty to be excited for, but i can't help but be paranoid at the same time.

senioritis

it's the last eight weeks of high school, and i've concluded that senioritis has hit me. i always remember what homework i have to do without writing it down. but now if i don't write it down, i'll forget to do it. i pulled out two 90's out of my ass for ap english and ap bio. last quarter! i'm pretty proud! now, i'm ready to doodle flowers and hearts on my ap bio. test, but i'm definitely not BS'ing the ap english one! i want my english credit hours! sigh, everything is about school, isn't it?

i really want to find out if i got my NROTC scholarship =/ bright futures would basically be useless if i had it because the navy would be paying for my tuition & books, duh!

i'm excited for april:
- SPRING BREAK in JACKSONVILLE!
- LATIN STATE in ORLANDO!
- the big 18!
- & finally, i'm getting my driver's license!

i should be reading gulliver's travels now. please pray that i get my scholarship!

distractions

i admit that i've been getting everything that needs to be done, but i sure haven't been focused. i've been studying for the SAT's, & wrapping everything up for the third quarter. the only thing i'm worried about now is my precal grade. well, that's nothing new--straight A's, then there goes my precal grade! danks makes it harder than it seems, ha.

i don't get why i even came to school today. it was definitely a waste. i'm glad that i came yesterday because i got my precal test back and aced it. i called angelica yesterday & it made my day because we were just talking about the lamest things ever. well, i was anyway. i was telling her that there's no way i'm going to leave all of my clothes in pensacola unless my family moves to jacksonville with me. i intend on bringing my entire closet with me to college & i'll find a place for everything no matter what. it's not that i care about what i wear, it's just the fact that i like having things in excess. there's stuff in my closet that i haven't even worn yet. there are three dresses there with the tags still on that i can wear for prom, but i'm not going to prom. then there goes my purses. i have to bring at least eight of them, even if i only use three. i just like having the comfort of my things.

...& i miss my best friend! ha, i'm lame.
happy 29 months tomorrow.
i can't even count anymore!

bye xanga!

i'm glad the pieces are slowly falling in place. i'm tired of waiting, and now i'm getting results!

1.) got accepted into UNF (NROTC-accredited school)
2.) "verbally" got my Nursing NROTC scholarship

senior chief told me that the NETC board said that i can "claim" my scholarship. in his words, "99% chance it's yours, they just have to look through [my] papers one more time & verify that everything is correct." i'm praying that everything is correct and legit this time! the scholarship recruiter screwed me over. he apparently didn't get things done.

...and i never thought in a million years that i would committ to this NROTC thing. i always doubted myself and thought i couldn't handle it. "i'm not trading my closet and purses for uniform!" well, i have nothing to lose. if i do get commissioned, then i'm going to buy myself a chanel purse! if everything gets finalized, i will definitely get that marc jacobs tote (;

so, why UNF? well, i thought about it for a while. i really wanted to go to UF, but knowing me, i don't want to weigh in a chance of getting a denial letter. tampa & orlando are full of people from high school, FSU---NEVER, UWF---last resort. & then came jacksonville. i don't know anyone from there, & i personally think that it's untainted because there are not many people from Escambia going there. i mean, college is supposed to be "brand new" and that includes people, too.

i'm still deciding if i should go to UNF or JU. which ever school gives me a better deal, that's the one, & i'll be visiting jacksonville soon to tour both campuses.

a little bit more waiting...then i'll be set!